The Pieces

Today, I was having a normal day and I had one of those moments. In my car. Driving to work just like I do every single day. A moment that I realized God's love for me. That might not seem unusual to anyone who really knows me. But it just hit me that HE truly loves me. He loves me more than I could even fathom. He CARES about every single detail in my life. Every single piece of it. The broken ones, the sharp ones, the mismatched ones and even the ones that are pleasing in His sight. I wish that my whole life/puzzle had all those pieces that please Him, but I am just Abby. I am sinner saved by grace. Amazing grace. Grace that overwhelms me and captures me just like it did today.

My "AH HA" moment came to me while I was thinking about Nicaragua for Christmas. I have to pay my trip off in November. The exact amount I owe, I have given the past few weeks. I gave it because I truly felt like it would be the best thing to do. Unlike many times, I gave it with a cheerful heart as a gift, knowing it would be a blessing. I was thinking about it and the amount I have given away is the amount that I will be given for my Photography by the end of October, which is the amount I need for my Nicaragua trip. HOW COULD HE BE SO GOOD TO ME? I was giving and little did I know God was working a way to give it right back to me. It really overwhelmed me. I had tears streaming down my face. I was reminded that my Jesus truly loves me and cares about all the pieces of my life. He cares about who I am giving to and why. He cares about providing for me. He cares to show me that He is still at work in my life in the midst of a crazy world. He is still so close when I feel far away. I was apprehensive about giving because I knew I had this trip to pay for. But God is the GREAT PROVIDER.

I am humbled by what I was reminded of today. I am nothing. HE IS EVERYTHING. What the Lord is doing and how he is working is truly a blessing to me. Not a blessing because I have done anything right! But a blessing because I truly desire for his name to be known. When He blesses me I will give. May I never hold anything for myself. It is His before He gives it to me and it will be His when I give it back.

“God be gracious to us and bless us, and cause His face to shine upon us, That
your way may be known on the earth, Your salvation among all the nations. Let the
peoples praise you, O God, Let all the peoples praise you. Let the nations be glad and
sing for Joy." Psalm 67

Lord, I thank you that You see my heart. You see the depths of who I am and you still love me. You see the good in me. The good that is only because of you. You see what I truly desire even in the mess of my heart and You somehow keep working. I praise you for Your constant provision in my life. Even when i don't always see it. Thank you for giving me moments like today when I see it and I see YOU. I pray that you would continue to deliver me from my pride and selfishness. May I continue, with Your wisdom, to give so that others might see and know Yo